要说再见了~~

还有一些日子，我又得离开我的家乡，槟城了。这次，又不知道几时会回来，只能说希望新年可以拿多几天假期。可能之前都是为了读书才离开，所以都没什么感慨。这次，心里总是有很多牵挂，好像有很多人事物我都没什么放得开。不过，我知道这是我的选择，一个让我可以真正地去学习和发挥的改变。大家请帮我祈祷，希望我回来的时候，我已经变了。好，等着瞧吧！

What Love is ?

Today, she ask me a question, a question that I couldn’t give her any correct and accurate answer, a question that most of us thought we knew but at the end of our lives, we found out that what we knew aren’t the rightful fact.

“What love is?”

I couldn’t really say that I understand what is love and its context within, however, love is a topic we that learn through our lives. Love is could be defined in thousands ways and words, and depends on to whom we loved and for what we loved. Love is miracle and this miracle starts when we learn to love, be loved and lovable.

Love is a feeling that:

♥ Brings you insane when you thought you are normal.
♥ Makes us become so powerful, even how petty we are.
♥ Carries us to do stupid things even we knew we shouldn’t do it.
♥ Makes us so devoted and would sacrifice almost everything for our loves one.
♥ Makes us to forgive and accept any defect of our loves one, or even seeing the imperfection perfectly.
♥ Makes us happy whenever and wherever we stay together with our loves one.

These are not the only definition for “love” but the least but the most basic definition that I could defined. Actually, there isn’t much for us to confuse about love, as we will only know the truth by try to love.

祝福 ● 珍重

昨天逛书局时，看到一本自己多年前看的书，吴若权的«爱过，总比没爱过好»。当时，不知为什么心情十分感触。可能因为最近几年，感情路上都没好过，常常跌跌撞撞的。朋友都问我，是否都麻痹了，我只能说，不麻痹又能怎样，难道一直沉落下去吗？

感情学分里，没有人可以肯定自己是一百分，因为到最后，根本不知道谁会是笑着离开。或许，根本没有所谓的胜利者和失败者，没有所谓的对和错，只有肯付出和肯接受的。而我，更是感情负分。时常自称是可以帮人解答感情问题和为爱情解码的我，却是能医人者，不能自医。

很多时候，口里都是感情哲学，可以帮很多人脱离感情触礁的危险，但自己却跌入了这个深渊。每次，自己的感情事却是一塌糊涂。我总是扮演把跌倒的都扶起来，然后，再把他的手交托给另一个人，希望他能带给她幸福。每次，自己一开始是主角，到最后，却变成了帮人成人之美的大配角。

还没看这本书前，我常埋怨自己，常常都不甘心，为什么到最后我都被贬，贬成配角。现在，我不会了。我学会感恩，学会如何去面对这一切。

这本书里，我十分赞同一句话 - 离开的人，要学会祝福；留下的人，要懂得珍重。



P/S: 愿你 ● 找到幸福。

原来你什么都不想要

一直以为我很了解你。在这一刻，才发现，其实自己只看了冰山一角。

我想了很久很久，应该要有一年了吧，才对你做出那个决定。可能是老天开的玩笑，才会同时告诉你两个完全对比性的消息。人生就是这样的充满矛盾，老天给的，永远都不是完美的。

不过，假如你问我，时光倒流，我会不会问你同样的问题和做出同样的决定，我还是会坚持。因为我知道，如果我不问不做，我以后一定会后悔。现在的我，心情至少松了。

虽然，你给了我一个我不想要的答案，我也只能欣然的接受和尊重你的选择。有得选的话，我当然希望，鱼与熊掌，两者兼得，因为，人性是贪婪的。不过，既然你是不会改变的，那我只能说，谢谢和祝福你。

现在，我脑海里不断重复着老爹的一首名曲 - 原来你什么都不想要。

There will be changes ~~

After tonight , there will be some changes to my life.. something that would change me a lot ..

Save Mother Nature - Earth hour

There's a lot of movies regarding saving mother nature or about world distruction recent years. Example: The Day the Earth Stood Still, The Core, Knowing, Armaggedon, Deep Impact.... Ya, it's true that mother nature is crying since human learn to expose, consume, damage ... our earth. Sometimes, as human, we always want to get more from mother nature but we never think to contribute something to Her. It is so unfair that we only ask for something but not to give back . Furthermore, we polute it with various harmful polutants that can never be reverse.

Now, it's time for us to contribute something back to our mother nature. Not money or anything can be bought by money. We need to show support to Earth Hour 2009 and any programs from now onwards. Just to join them and do what we should do to help earth. Switch off lights from 2030-2130 for 1 hour on 28th Mar. It helps a lot for reduce carbon dioxide release into our ozone by reducing the energy consumption.

Hope that our earth can have a better future.

Signup : http://www.earthhour.org/

Happy Wednesday

Start my day with a smile on my face. Not a Joker laugh but just smiling from my heart. Maybe fionna spending me dinner to celebrate my birthday last night. haha.. still in the mood~~

Moving On ~~

met my uni-mate 2 days ago , she told me a lot of things about our frens . it seems that every1 in my uni did quite well for their life.. I am the one that still hanging around and doing stupid job which i dont think i should doing (luckily still something left for me to learn and do for my job). not that i i dont wan pursue better life and career but need a target to find a job that really suits me .. anyway , i need to move on no matter what happens..

grey day + blue mood

Stop blogging for quite some time .. mayb it's too busy and furthermore, my mind just become blank whenever i touch the keyboard.. a lot of things to say but duno how to express myself in such a way that can make everyone understand how i feel..

In short , this is how i feel now :
grey day + blue mood

Just hope that in the coming sunday , this would be my feelings:
Shinning Day + Happy Mood

Time Freeze ~~

For the first time , i felt time freeze .. when everything juz stop for the one second ... at my orchard... seems even i can feel the breeze stops right at my face ... no ones there ... but natures just surround me ... with the sun shinning , cloud stop moving ... even the birds hang on trees and look at me ...

What i am thinking on that second ?? hehe ... someone ... someone i didn't met for quite some time ... someone that i always thought that she is the most important for me ... someone i might do anything , everything for her ...